school start...

i feel restless again. the peacefulness has disappeared from my life. i want to go somewhere. maybe beach. i want to go somewhere and let my heart settle down. but i know no matter where i go, it will just be the same. coz even if i feel better, it will only last for a while. these few days i can't keep quiet when i am with my friends. actually one of my wishes is to be able to sit down somewhere quietly and peacefully with my best friend/s. but i can't. since long long time ago, my heart has lost its peace. sometimes i heard a little voice inside me crying out: help. i don't know help what. i hope my mind can think clearer soon. school just started. maybe that's why. i panic.